is not good for me.

I keep thinking back to old friends and crushes and what it would be like if we were together. I've come up with several answers but they are locked away in the dark recesses of my mind for my own amusement.

I think the longest crush I ever had was in highschool on a girl for 3 years until I finally built up the courage( I was shy, sue me) to tell her the truth but got shot down. Gently, but you know how the saying goes "Iron gauntlet clad in velvet..."

And then I think back and just wonder "What happened?"

Why did we stop talking? Why have I drifted apart from all my friends, both in real life and online? Why am I so stupid?

They say you don't know what you have until you lose it. I lost a lot of good friends through radio silence. Well...I want them back. Maybe not all of them, but at least the ones I cherished the most. Soooo if you get a random note from me or phone call or something, it might be me trying to get in touch with you <3

....okay maybe not phone call, but text or note on dA or something.

...There's a chicken staring at me.